O God, help me to realize that in all my life, the most important thing is my walk with You. Not my dreams and hopes. Even though it feels like I can't live without them, can't identify myself without them. Not my relationships with people. Even though they give me life, affirm me, build me. Not for things to go well--success, not just in ostensibly 'secular' things, but even in good things; like church or family or the conversions of others even. Not even what I do for You. There are so many distractions, so many things crying to be done. So many things I could be. As the choices and the options dazzle me, as the opportunity cost paralyzes me, this life gets reduced to a list of tasks and accomplishments, of do's and don'ts, in both senses of the word--even my spiritual life. It's ultimately my relationship with You. This past year--did I love You better? Do I understand You better? I get carried away by the idea that I have to DO something in order to show that any one thing in my life is important to me, and I often focus too much, even when it comes to You, on whether I've "spent enough time," "done," "witnessed," even "glorified," that word which gets thrown around so easily that it loses its full weight and significance, and gets reduced to yet another to-do list. I forget that we glorify God and enjoy Him. That my relationship with You should be the true priority, rather than what I can do for You, or what I need to be. That this coming year, I want my focus to emerge clearly, amid all my work, plans, relationships, goals, and responsibilities... You and I. To grow in this relationship.
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