Looking at the dates, I realize that today, it is exactly two years since the start of this blog.
And no, I will NOT title this post 'Throwback Thursday,' appealing as the chance may sound.
It's staggering, to me, to realize how many posts I've unwittingly written since, and even more staggering to realize how many kind readers have taken the time to drop by almost every day since. I never really imagined reaching a two year milestone, to be honest. Low expectations, I know. There are times when just getting out the weekly article felt like, to paraphrase Gene Fowler, staring at the blank text box until drops of blood came out on your forehead.
I've learnt a lot since then through the upkeep of this blog, and I don't just mean the technological side of it either. (though that certainly plays a big part. Ugh.) Yes, I haven't always managed to post every week--prophecy fulfilled--but I'm quite amazed that this blog, its little readership, and most of all my spluttering pen (okay, that's a figure of speech. Sticky laptop keys would much more accurate) have persevered till today. For that, I want to thank all the quiet readers who have encouraged me with their readership when I struggled to keep to the discipline of writing weekly. I'm perfectly aware that my writing is far from the greatest, and--even more discouragingly--far from the best it could be; I don't manage to edit it or think over it half as much as I would like to, to read as widely and as deeply as I would like to.
In fact, I rather dislike looking back at old posts, petrified by the fear that I may stumble across some absolutely awful, shabby articles that will cast me writhing into the throes of insecurity and despair. Well, I've survived so far in my pathetic foray into the dangerous world of the internet and self-proclaimed opinions; no one has sent me any death threats, and I don't think I've grown more hypocritical--hopefully, humbler, having had to face my limitations so much. Honestly, any delusions I had on my inspiration or intellectual depth are significantly lower now than when I first started this blog.
I will keep trying to write about things which are relevant and personal--hopefully, also thoughtful and helpful, please God. And if you have ever found this blog helpful, or at the least mildly interesting, please pray that it will continue to bless both its readers and its writer. My prayer is that this blog will continue to live up to its name--that, as this excerpt from my favourite hymn beautifully expresses, it will continue to point others and myself, upwards.
When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upwards I look, and see Him there,
Who made an end to all my sin,
~Before the Throne of God Above
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