Serving God.
Whenever we think of that, we tend to think of the effort, the labor, the sacrifice it means to us. Wanting, trying, to serve God despite our imperfections and limitations. And at least for me, once my thoughts go down this line, I often end up facing the fear of failure. I'm not wise enough. Maybe God doesn't want me to serve in this way? Is this just my own idea of what His plan should be like? I'm not strong enough, or selfless enough. I know what to do, what I want to do. But it's so hard to overcome the flesh, the sin, the ME-ness! And I get discouraged. I find things like this scribbled in various prayer journals: 'I can't even want You on my own.' 'I wish I could be more clearly, directly worked in by You and not by my own misguided motivations and emotions...' 'How can I ever pray for others when I'm such a mess myself?' But really, serving God is not a one-way action, as I tend to over-simplify it. All our works for Him are also His works through us--His works in us. I need to see my work for You not just as something I'm doing for You, but also something You're doing through me. Knowing this is how He gives us peace. "...Lord, You will establish peace for us, For You have also done all our works in us." ~isaiah 26:12
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